6.15.2011

once upon a time...

It seems like forever ago I last posted something here.
I don't know where to begin this new post.

Once upon a time I found love but that love is now gone. The love I thought was going to last a lifetime. Soon as I found out my love was gone, I went through a period of sadness beyond words could ever describe. I yelled, screamed, cursed, threatened people, destroyed things, sent nasty emails, cried, stopped eating, stopped sleeping, felt depressed, blamed myself, blamed the world, wanted to drown myself in the river, went crazy.... Then one day... one day... I calmed down. Just like that. One morning I woke up and realized that there were some things I could never change. And I decided my life was too short to fix every problem that was not mine. I snapped back to life.

Fast forward today, I am feeling better. Much better. Not always easy if I have to be honest. I've decided to keep the good memories and toss out the bad. Eight years is a long time to be with someone. I have no regrets. In fact, I'd like to thank him for giving me a beautiful daughter---the love of my life. I am glad we crossed paths.

My life is going to change forever. I believe better things are ahead of me. I have a new life to live! I have a daughter who is going to look up to me. I have to show her the world and all the good things that are in store for her! And I am excited. I truly cannot wait to explore all the adventures that are coming into my life. I hope you'll stick around cause I have more stories to tell!

2 comments:

MMJ said...

Awe Lita...I'm glad to hear you're doing better and back to blogging! You're a strong woman. I'm sure you'll be just fine!

eliseland said...

You can do ANYTHING :) You set your mind to :) Remember I am always here for you no matter what happens.

*Hugs*